I try to close my legs as tightly as possible to feel better, because everytime I blink for a second, that second I close my eyes, I get a flashback of what he did.. how he touched me. I don't want to feel like that. That is the worst feeling in the world. I don't know how I am ever going to survive this. His touch runs through my mind all day, I can't help but feel completely vunerable and uncomfortable. I. JUST. WANT. TO. FEEL. BETTER.
I will never be able to get close to a man ever again, nor do I want to. I just want to lock myself in my room and sleep all day. I want nothing to do with the world.
I just want to end my life sometimes. I really do. Because of the nightmares going through my mind all day and all night. I just wanna run away from it all.
- This Is Exactly What Runs Through My Mind